on creating reality of dreams...

in the many years that i have been pursuing my creative endeavors the most difficult obstacle of all to overcome has to have been personal frustration.

by nature i am an extremely giving & supportive human being. for various reasons beyond my control, i spent many years dealing w/blood relatives who either did not know how or did not choose to be at all supportive. couple this experience w/the dog-eat-dog mentality of the average human in our society & you have the makings of what has been a disturbing journey at times.

even w/all of the negativity i have been exposed to over the years, the reality is that my path will always ultimately be determined by the actions that i take. it took me many years to fully realize the power of this truth in seeking the realization of my goals.

regardless of what any other human does to me, the aftermath will be determined by my response to their actions. if i choose to respond w/ignorance, violence, hatred, etc., then i choose the path that the dark tread. it's a challenge, but i have made a conscious decision of late to stay lit. as a Star Wars head i guess it would be that i've decided to avoid the dark side of the force...

i see why so many people choose to embrace the darker ways of looking out for self so much so that all those who cross their path become victims of blind ambition. i refuse to become 1 of these ambition zombies.

frustration would seem to be the primary cause for an individual to just say fuck it to the world & recklessly go for self. as social animals, legitimate self preservation as a human does not require such a disregard for others. in my case, it's not in my nature to approach the journey in this fashion. if this is seen as not having a killer instinct then so be it. i'll reserve my instinctual observational skills for killing bullshit.

i find nothing more frustrating in life than flakiness, lies, & the general fuckery that is involved in social dealings on a regular basis. the difference for me nowadays is that i am no longer allowing said frustration to impede my efforts to create a more + reality for self & those who choose to support what it is that i represent.

it comes down to ABB = Always Be Building. sadly, many will not reciprocate this way of being. fortunately, this will no longer be stopping me from doing watitdo...

#BLAM

PEACE

...be calm...